I find it increasingly more difficult to write musings. Usually I do one of these when I get really upset about something, but the things that upset me nowadays aren't worth mentioning.
I feel upset because someone else is chosen over me to hang out with. This isn't something I should whine or complain about however, as I wish happiness for those I care about and I can't assure that the time spent with me would be better than it would've been with someone else. We forge our own happiness best with the happiness of those around us. If I force myself onto other then neither of us will be as happy as we could've been otherwise.
When others ask me if anything's wrong I don't feel I can let them in on what's bugging me. "They preferred someone else over me" doesn't really have a solution other than to let it be and eventually it'll stop being an issue. I don't think I would want pity in these moments either, as I am well aware already that I am well liked and people enjoy my company.
Sometimes I get called out for being cold and too analytical. I can see why.
Until next time.
